What Now?

(Feita hoje. Um dia de sol, sonhos longos e tristes, pensamentos vagos sempre tornam-se  em música)

I can barely feel the sun
or the water on my skin
Beer runs cold and I'm getting drunk
Drowned in my misery

I came here to get some peace of mind
All alone, no one to see
Resting my head on the grass
Oh dear lord, I've been a mess

What now, what now?
What will I do when my feet touch the ground?
What now, what now?
Who to call and tell it all about?

Hating myself, what have I done?
They just can laugh 
and I just wanna run

I"ll get away
Maybe is time
I"ll take it until I can hide
Take it until I can hide

What now, what now?
What will I do when my feet touch the ground?
What now, what now?
Who to call and tell it all about?

(o solo de violão se assemelha propositalmente a musica Gomenasai das Tatu .)

Misery in my Veins

Do forninho e auto explicativa

Who are you? What you're doing?
Trying to get into my little world?
Who you think you are
To know what I'm feeling

You haven't the slightest idea
What I"ve been, who I loved
What I"m thinking
Seems you're don't care less to know
 who I really am

Give up until you got time
I"m no good, no good
Don't even give a try
Ends up the worse way
I"m broken and you may say
what they say
There is misery in my veins

Heart is black, soul is shattered
I can't knee and make promises no more
I"ve be broken lots of time
No time can fix

There's misery in my veins and I like it
I feel so good when it rains
So bring it on me
So bring it all on me

Is that love?

Uma das minhas preferidas.... eu tinha 19 anos

Rafaela Gurgel: Is That Love

Was it something unreal? Supernatural?
Something incredible new but was possible
Makes you float away in every single smile
Drowned on your own feelings
Consuming all your heart

Confused but compleat
No matter what it is, you cannot stop
Is all you ever wish
Confused but compleat
Is that love?

Was everything that you had
And all you belonged to
Not only a part of your life
But a part of you

Makes you burn as a flame
In every single touch
Drowned in your own dreams
Where you're already lost

Grey

The sky is grey, the rain falls on my window
My wine is cold and life still going on
They ask me how I've been, I lie about it
Truth to be told you know I'm not that strong

There is something here inside that hurts so badly
Feet so away from the ground
When I returnt to my grey sad world
I see you all over the town

Places I've never been
Faces I"ve never seen
So familiar with the feeling
Of a heart that's never healing
Bleeds constantly 

And no, I can't go on
I  can't fool myself the way they do
I guess, yes, I"m stronger
I can face it without you

And only without you

I"m in your Domain

Esse baby surgiu ano passado, tem versão solada mas ainda vou aprimorar.

Seems like doesn't matter
If I can't reach your heart
They say my dreams are worthless and you'll
never be mine

Maybe will never happen
And I just wanna dare
Stronger then my reasons and I
don't seem to care

Cause I"m in your domain
And I have always been
Suddenly I can't pretend
You're messing hard with me
This thing I feel for you
I just cant explain
And somehow you know is true
I"m in your domain

An if you ever want me
Wich I don't think you will
My heart will wait forever, I can't
help the way I feel

Between the rights and wrongs
No boundaries can end
The way you mess my heart ans soul
I"ll never understand

Walls

- I wonder I wonder...

- Wonder what?

- If  things could be different

- Guess the problem about you is intensity

- Is that a problem?

- Sure. Too much wasted energy on nothing

- On... nothing?

- Nothing, that's it! Always have, always will be nothing

- Comforting

- Sorry tell you the truth... it hurts, mostly

-  I don't think I waste feelings, they help me to build my walls, my personality

- It makes you build walls of pride and a lot of childish acts

- I don't mind as long as I can protect myself from pain

- Is impossible. You're gonna hurt yourself even more

- Can't leave my pride, not this time

- Ok, keep going with your stupid pride and watch yourself get as lonely as you can be, with your walls and your pain.

- I don't mind, got used to it.

-Stop being so stubborn!! She's was there, she almost screamed she loves you and you stood still, you ran away!

-Not worth it, you know that better than me.

-People change. Give her a try.

-She will destroy the last piece of my heart.

-Cut the drama

-Damn, aways with the mood killer

-There is no freaking mood, go out and tell what you feel already

 -Pain, pain pain pain and a lot of pain

-Till when?

-Till forever

The game is On

Where is the space between right and wrong
When we're playing this game?
Stand still hoping life to go on
Maybe is better that way

Controling my thoughs my acts
feelings that holds me back
It's gonna be fine
Loosing my mind, my breath
My soul, the're no regreat
It's gonna be fine

I"ts gonna be fine
I made up my mind
Got no tears to cry
The game is on

Where can I find the rules of love
Guess I broke all the code
On my feet I'll stay in tall
Getting ready to fall

Holding my pride, my pain   
Everything still the same
I"ts gonna be fine
There is no more time to waste
Sliding through love and hate
I"ts gonna be fine 

This Waiting

My love is a loaded gun
You hold the trigger
So come on

I can't decide alone
Make your choice cos I"ll be gone
Baby dont get me wrong
I know this road, 
I"ve been there too long

This waiting is just a waste of time
I though enought for you and I.

Stalker

D/G

I know Im doing this to call your atention
I'm getting obsessed, my friends aready made an intervention

A/G
What can I do if cant stop thinking of you
You should help me out
But if you do, I"ll be thankfull
And then I'll love you again

Even more
My feeling growing again just like before
This is a cicle of pain, but I"ll be sure
Someday I'm gonna get over
I really need to get over

I know I should eat something, but my hunger is for you
I think I'm going crazy, maybe I just want to be fooled

But when you're there, I cant avoid to stare
Like a stalker in the rain
Getting sick but enjoying the pain

They say I need to get over
But you're there, right in front of me
In my wall, In my screensaver
In front of the tv

Shut the Fuck

Shut the fuck when Im talking
Who the hell do you think you are?
Quiet now, and just listen
Have a sit, I"m about to start

For the record, I'll remind you
Im the queen of my own domain
You won't steal any feeling
You wont bring me any kind of pain

Cause the walls of this castle
I've been building with tears and blood
All my life seeing red
Made me sad and so insecure

Oh those days, left behind
Clear skyes , now I see the truth
I got free, I got fine
I got what I deserved to

How Am I Suppose to Know

How Am I suposed to know you are the one for me?
When all the cards and signs says we're not meant to be
Someone else I'll meet in the road
Someone else I still dont know
And I dont even want to belive you're messing up with me

Everytime I hear that song Im thinking of your face
You're on my dreams so many times, so many diferent ways
Im forging ways for us to meet, I see you here but I cant reach
I wanna give you up but everything just seems to fit


Where do find the road that leads to you
Where can I figure out the truth
If you help me, maybe I can let you know
I dont need to be seeking no more
You' re the one I've looking for


You got everything I want but you cannot be mine
It seems only your little world is good enought to try
But my destiny is clear
That's why I can hide this fear
And I dont wanna live my life just playing make belive

And I ask

What are you gonna do when night falls and your pillow is all you got
Your pain and pride is you fortress and your torturer is your own thoughts

What are you gonna say when people ask how have you been
You will pretend it's all ok but deep inside you want to scream

Who are you gonna rely when  loneliness calls your name
And the ones you ever loved, life took them all away

What are you going to do when they turn their back on you
And you'll finally be afraid of loosing your own and favorite game

What are you gonna say?
What lies have you prepared?
What future holds for you beside despair?

Not even the shadow of my hand, 

No other help you will find

Nothing left but living a lie.

And no one will ever see behind my pretty little lying eyes